hidden thought

Hidden thought

 

I know you’re in there, hoping I don’t see you,

Skulking around, in places I won’t look,

Like memories, of which I’ve lost more than a few,

Waiting to pounce, shake every cranny and nook,

But you don’t fool me,

 

I choose not to find you; we are both at ease,

If you stay hidden, we’ll get along just fine,

There’s nothing about you, that me, will please,

We’re hiding, both of us biding our time,

I wonder, who’s fooling who,

 

You’re like a whole other person, definitely not me,

Yet, you lay waiting, deep in my mind,

A promise, biding time to be free,

A sudden finality, where I’ll be defined,

Who is fooling who here,

 

Should I drop my guard, let you take over,

Just to see what you will do,

And what then, will I discover,

An end of me, a beginning for you,

Fools then, thinking either of us is free,

 

It’s a fight, to control a torrid mind,

Watching me, against myself, and I?

Praying that sanity, is what I will find,

Knowing for my life, I must, inevitably try,

There is no fooling a fool,

 

But you don’t fool me,

I wonder, who if any, is fooling who,

Who is fooling who here,

Fools then, thinking either of us is free,

There is no fooling this old fool,

for the day thats in it :)

And try we must

 

I cry the tears, of love, since lost,

I’ve felt the pain, flow from my eyes,

I’ve lived to pay, I count the cost,

I missed the laughter, and the joys,

 

Hidden behind, a veil of hope,

The hurt and pain, I felt inside,

Began to think, I’d never cope,

Forever more, love be denied,

 

Yet time would heal, I saw some light,

A flickering light, on a distant shore,

My heart said, try and keep up the fight,

Someone out there, will love you, once more,

 

When least expected, a look a glance,

A passing smile, will brighten your day,

Then you may give love, one more chance,

And listen to all it has to say,

 

And try again and again to love,

Hope your heart, will soon feel joy,

Easing towards it, no push or shove,

A kindred spirit, a girl, a boy,

 

When love is found, it will ease your pain,

And to all, much will you give,

A willingness to trust again,

All Past errors you will forgive,

 

In the end, who of us knows?

How far to go, when can we trust,

In all our comings to and fro,

To keep on trying is for all a must.

tough one today

Laid to rest

 

Laid to rest, yet still you remain,

Fresh, as though it was yesterday,

Now, nothing will ever be the same,

Gone, when I had so much to say,

 

And you, your story yet to unfold,

I, stood here, somehow feeling lost,

To me so young, to others perhaps old,

Death the price, we must pay life’s cost,

 

Mourning now, as we each recall,

For all you did, how much you gave,

Each time you rose, after every fall,

May the sun shine brightly, upon your grave?

 

I’ll call by, when I need your word,

Bring you flowers, like I should have done,

Tell you all the things I’ve heard,

Together, we will laugh as one,

 

And as I sit and remember you,

And so much mischief, we may have caused,

As all between us, was very much true,

I wish death, for once had paused,

 

But that grim reaper waits for none,

His lantern dims, his scythe swings low,

Yet I’ll recall we had so much fun,

Before he called, and you had to go,

 

Though laid to rest, you will remain,

Your story will, in time unfold,

Nothing, will ever be the same,

In my heart your memory, I’ll always hold.