two poems for this week hope ya lika em

The forgetting illness

For reasons which elude me, I remained,
This body alien, to a mind long gone,
Time became dark, almost colour stained,...
Lost tunes of a forgotten song,

You gaze upon me, laid on this bed,
You speak, all I hear is chatter,
The mind you knew, is long since dead,
I smile yet somehow, nothing matters,
I want to know you, I truly do,
So much I want, to have your recall,
But each day passing, is so brand new,
Night brings no sound, no familiar call,
You visit often, further, I regress,
My world is filled with, I don’t know?
If I could remember, I would confess,
I am unaware, if you come or go,
I cannot tell if I’m well or not?
They make me eat, then make me sleep,
Who am I, why have I forgot,
The never knowing makes me so weep,
The one you lost, is lost right here,
Not knowing who or where or what,
I live in total constant fear,
Of everything my minds forgot,
Alzheimer’s, dementia, a rotten disease,
Filled with remorse, consumed by regret,
The mind has gone, over time with ease,
Who will remember, all, that I’ve forgot.


No more waiting

And so I wait, for some kind of sign,
It’s with heavy heart, and feelings low,
My world has changed; all is not so fine,
I’m still confused, why you had to go,
You said to wait, time would tell,
A better day, would come to you,
Hidden pain, all was not so well,
Filled with remorse, no day came through,
I waited long, and I waited hard,
And though we spoke, no words were needed,
You played it well, your final card,
The silent voice, I so well heeded,
I wait no more, the time has come,
No longer here, must I sit, alone,
I know now, it is hard for some,
For a long time now, I watched you going,
The fight is over, your time it came,
You knew it well, you ached to go,
Though life remained, yet not the same,
No more waiting, no more to show,
The wait is over, you have since left,
Yet still remain, deep in my heart,
And though I sit, of you bereft,
Never, from here shall you depart.